I went to my pulmonologist/GP;s office today. I described to him horrific abdominal pain that has wakened me for the past three days, multiple times each night I also described the numbness and itching and the acid burning sensation in right leg....He said, "I could send you for a scan....but you and I both know that is a waste of time....Your former scans were so bad I doubt that there is much else to be gained by looking at new ones." He told me sadly,"both of these problems are caused by your messed up spine....but the DDD and the rediculopathy, and the facet damage and the spondyliltis. Nothing can be done. All you can do is go home and rest" That's IT???? park your arse in your recliner and wait to die in the most miserable manner possible. I've been crying off and on all day. I knew this day was coming....but I did not know it would be so soon.
Although truth be told, I'd had the tiniest bit of activity this week. I went out to eat and I stopped at Walmart (using the stores and my daughter's boyfriend taking stuff off the shelves for me an dputting it all in the car and bringing it in the house.... I was EXHAUSTED by that. I went to Prayer meeting that night. I opened in prayer ...leaned over and fell asleep for the entire remainder of the meeting. Today at 8:30 in the car goign to my doctor, I fell asleep and made my driver miss a turn since I was guiding her.
I have not had the strength to cook any kind of a meal in as long as I can remember. I'm useless.
I'm so sad. Is this really how my life will be for as long as it lasts?