the other night my daughter's boy friend was eating over and none oof us had had a home cooked meal for quite a while. So I dug deep for some energy and made baby potatoes, acorn squash and chicken cutlets in herbs.
I cut my first bite of chicken. Put it in my mouth. ....and chewed. And chewed . and chewed. And no matter what I did I could not get that chicken down into my esophagus. I finally had to spit it out iinto a napkiln. Next I tried the potatoes. Nope. NO luck there either. The ONLY thing I could eat was acorn squash cooked in butter and brown sugar. What a disappointment! My swallowing seems to be getting worse and worse. As is my vision. I'm going in October to have a yearly complete eye exam. I feel like my vision has gotten worse and worse. I am feeling like the glaucoma is progressing. And my RA and PsA are both merrily kicking my butt as well. I'm on steroids for those now in addtion to a biologic pill for PsA which I have to stay on for 3 months before we can determine whether or not it is helping.
I'm tired of all of this...at night my legs go on fire with nerve pain.. My thighs are numb but at the same time burning up with pain like hot acid being poured on them. I cannot sleep in any position. and it only seems to be at night. Im tired and Im tired of being in too much pain to sleep. I'm seeing a new psychologist on the 30th. I'm afraid to really tell her how I'm feeling for fear that she willl slap me into a hospital to deal with the depression. It's NOT depression. It's being sick and tired of being sick and tired. It's situational depression. And I'm already taking the best antidepressant I've ever been on. She really can't do anything but refill my meds and listen to me whine.
Sorry for dumping my discouragement on you. I'm tired as heck of being sick and in pain.